"....I am really discouraged. I feel like I am the biggest failure and loser alive. I feel like I have nothing to offer, and I feel like I am good for nothing.
I feel like I can't do anything well. I can’t sing. I can’t play volleyball. I can’t speak Creole. I don’t have any good hobbies. I can’t cook. I can’t bake. I am not godly enough.
God I know those things are so silly but that is honestly how I am feeling. I know that I need to find my value and my worth in you. Help me to do that. I am out of my comfort zone in Haiti. Instead of clinging to you and trying to find my worth in you, I want to cling and find it in what people think of me.
Help me not to compare myself to others. Help me to believe and trust that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Help me to know that my faith and my worth does not come from my feelings and what I think of myself. My worth and value also does not come from what others think of me. Help me to find my value in what you think of me.
God you loved me SO much you sent your son to die for me on the cross. You sent Jesus to die in my place so that I could live forever and be in a relationship with you. Help me to believe that. Help me to truly know that you are enough and you need to be the only things that matters to me.
God help me cling to you. Help me take the focus off myself and put the focus on you.
Change my heart. Show me what it looks like to love you more each day and bring glory to your name...."
I know this is a serious post... but a correction needs to be made!!
ReplyDeleteJill can bake... :-)
Praying that God will reveal how special you are regardless of your ability to do anything well or not well! Have you read "You are Special" to your 2nd Graders yet? They may need this reminder too. x
Jill Rutz, your genuine heart is absolutely beautiful. I am so encouraged by how you're walking with our Mighty King through your heart aches. I am praying for you sister, goodness you are an encouragement to me! I love you!
ReplyDelete-Your sis,
Whit (Haiti 2010)